I’ve been meaning to give a special someone a huge thanks here on the blog for a while now. A couple months back I wrote a post reminiscing about my days as a Taxi Dancer. Richard, a self-described Vanessa Chase fan from way back, told me about a book called “Ask the Dust” which mentions taxi dancing and I appreciated the heads up.
Then he made me an offer in a follow up blog post comment: “If you add it to your Amazon Wishlist, I’ll make sure you get a copy.” I was flattered, did as he suggested, and less than a week later… well, see for yourself!
Richard hooked me up! And is a complete gentleman I’m now glad to know.
Richard, you’re a class act. And I’m sorry it took me so long to get around to thanking you (again) with a photo. I’ve been enjoying the book and learning more about Arturo Gabriel Bandini and John Fante’s work in general. You were right – I’m digging it.
If you see this, Richard, please drop me a line and let me know. I usually say the contact page and email is for business-related inquiries only, but for you I’ll make an exception!
I can obviously only speak for myself. But I’d imagine most women entering the adult industry (or men, for that matter) either haven’t thought about the day someone in their family “finds out”, naively hoped it would never happen – or really didn’t care to begin with. In my case it happened early, was a bit of a shock, and I think it’s worth sharing.
One morning, way back in 1995, my Father called me out of the blue. While he didn’t sound particularly upset, he did ask if he could come over to my apartment (insisting it happen that same day) so we could have a talk. There was just a little something in his tone that left me thinking it was more of a “demand”, and that I may be in trouble.
After he arrived, I was at first relieved when he told me he had a brand new pirate cable box. Because for a fleeting second I figured that was his big news. He’s a huge movie fan, I’d never heard of such a thing, and maybe he’d even gotten one for me! But then I started connecting the dots… and realized what else a pirate box was probably capable of broadcasting. “Yeah, Vanessa, you’re probably about to have a very difficult conversation” came the inevitable inner-monologue.
“Hot in the Saddle” from 1994 – One of My First Roles
Do you guys remember the Spice Channel? Well, Dad had just discovered it. And as soon as he brought it up I knew which way the wind was blowing that day. My heart sank. Because, honestly, I was 18 years old and hadn’t given the potential downside of becoming a porn star the hours (and hours) of thought it probably deserved.
“Let’s talk about Hot in the Saddle“. Obviously my Dad wanted to kick the tires on everything his new illegal set-top box had to offer, and on his first attempt at the naughty offerings obviously noticed… his own damn daughter. I was horrified, and had no idea what to respond with. While I enjoyed my girl-on-girl dalliance with P.J. Sparxx, and Gail Force was a supportive director, I had a bad feeling it was the scene with Anthony Crane which bothered him that particular afternoon. Yikes. Where do I go from here?
Honestly is often the best policy when backed into a corner. I quickly told my Dad that I liked doing porn, and that I was really good at it. Given more time to strategize, a softer touch may have been the result. He was totally flummoxed and just kind of backed away, awkwardly. “OK“, he said while walking out the door – and that was that.
“There’s something different about ya, Toby”
Then it was excruciating radio silence for what seemed like forever. A few days later I heard an unexpected knock at the door, and there he was – with the pirate box tucked under his arm. “I won’t be needing this any more“. After a brief and uncomfortable silence… we both started laughing – and he was on his way.
Years later, we talked about how I just wanted him to say “no” to me. And not just follow along with my bad decisions: like leaving the house at 16, dropping out of school, or driving him to eventually give up his parental control. Ultimately, he told me that I am “more than my actions” and “not to be ashamed of my past because it doesn’t define who I am“. So you could say, there was a silver lining.
My relationship with my father remains strong to this day and the results could have been far worse. I love him, and the way he chose to accept my choices. If anything, I feel guilty because he missed out on all the great porn he’d have gotten to enjoy if he’d just kept that damn box.
As previously reported, last night I was the JizzTalking.com podcast guest, and a great time was had by all! You can now see the full hour in it’s archived entirety (and without signing up for a Facebook group or anything) here: Vanessa Chase Podcast.
Thanks to Patrick and JizzTalking.com – What a fun experience!
I was thrilled to meet the dynamic cast of characters who showed up to chat and participate. Casey had questions about a couple of specific movies, Wayne was curious about my Aikido pursuits, Charles seemed to long for the days when my hair was shorter, Joshua was full of compliments (thank you!) – and the almighty Lynn LeMay even dropped by to say hello to everyone!
Lynn LeMay showed up to chat. Who knew?!
Joshua also asked about my plans for the future… and I let a few things slip. Namely my interest in possible girl/girl shoot on the Vanessa Chase OnlyFans – but please don’t quote me on that just yet. I truly loved meeting and speaking with you all. Classy ladies, respectable gentlemen, and how can I not mention Patrick the host with the most? Please let me know what you thought of the podcast in the blog comments, or ask me your own questions if you weren’t able to attend live.
Happy to announce that on Sunday, March 27th I’ll be appearing on the popular JizzTalking.com podcast! And the best part?: fans can call in to Zoom to ask me questions, all on live video! You can see me, I can see you, and the whole thing sounds like a lot of fun. I’m really looking forward to it, so please think up some interesting questions or memories – and I’ll see you there!
To participate or just watch it live at 8pm Eastern you’ll have to first join their Facebook group, but it will be available here in their archive, and on 12 different podcast platforms, shortly thereafter.
Listen to my interview on 3/27/22 at JizzTalking.com!
The site and podcast are part of the larger Adult Entertainment Autograph Group on Facebook, and on JizzTalking.com they have a “for sale” page with an impressive collection of autographed porn star photos available to buy. I hope to have my face added to the collection for fans shortly!
Some of the autographs available at JizzTalking.com
Getting back to their podcast archives: There’s some amazing episodes including Hyapatia Lee, Sharon Mitchell, Annie Sprinkle, Micky Lynn, Christy Canyon, Seka and nearly 100 others. Talk about being in good company!
So that’s this Sunday, March 27th at 8pm Eastern (Hope you tune in to enjoy, and I’d love to hear what you thought about the very first Vanessa Chase podcast in the comments below.
I’ve been getting a lot of questions about why I left the porn industry when my career’s momentum was snowballing. I doubt anyone will be surprised to hear me say, “it was complicated“. Porn without complication is as likely as a bus full of nuns going to Hooters (credit to my grandfather for that one). Regardless, these questions recently reminded me of a story worth sharing. Not every part of which I’m extremely proud.
Like mine, her star was already rising, but in 1997 Jenna Jameson starred in “Flashpoint”, which definitely increased her star power and helped solidify her as one of the greatest porn stars of all time. Well-deserved, and get well Jenna! We love you.
1997’s “Flashpoint” starring Jenna Jameson.
The story as it relates to me: I was originally cast as the lead in Flashpoint. And then suddenly decided to leave the industry. I basically flaked on the director and the production. For which I apologize to everyone involved. We even went as far as a photo shoot for the cover.
Who knows what would have happened if my course hadn’t changed… and I’d ended up wielding that famous axe on the cover of Flashpoint? But Jenna did the movie justice, understatement of the decade, and if I’d stayed cast… we’d have definitely had to rethink the red suspender usage on the boxcover.
Again, I apologize to Brad and everyone else whose time was wasted when I backed out. I was a kid, I wanted to exit stage left, but I know I left some people in the lurch. Truly sorry.
This is definitely an exciting announcement – the official Vanessa Chase store is now live and available through my website. Like, this website. That you’re already on, right now. Read further, or visit the link in the sidebar. Either way, I’m happy you’re here!
The Vanessa Chase DVD, VOD and on-demand scene store is now live!
The history: shortly after my return a few months ago, several fans suggested I set up a retail store for anyone looking for DVDs, VOD scenes or anything else available from online retailers. I took that advice to heart, started looking around at options and am happy to say we got it done. While I chose one retailer for the main site, I’m planning to provide options on other sites you all may prefer. I’m also planning to add direct, non-affiliate options for fans looking for autographed photos, panties, and other popular requests.
Find Vanessa Chase titles like “Nasty Girls #8”
Thanks to AdultEmpire for making the process as easy as possible, and I hope anyone interested will find what they’re looking for. In addition to Vanessa Chase titles, their inventory includes adult toys and content from probably every porn star (past and present) you can think of. Let me know what you think in the comments, and I hope you enjoy this new feature!
One of my personal hobbies, which I’ve been at for the longest time, is martial arts. Specifically, Aikido. I’ve gotten some questions about it on Twitter, the Vanessa Chase OnlyFans and even on AdultDVDTalk – so it’s probably time to explain in a little more detail.
Vanessa Chase throwing down.
I got started back in 2010 and my current rank is 1st Kyu. This is one under Shodan, which is one under Black Belt, and then there are many levels of black belt after that. I have a ways to go yet but am proud of the accomplishment so far. It isn’t easy. But it is worth it!
Why Aikido? It combines my past loves of dance (ballet), gymnastics and rolling around with the boys (no, not like that) I just mean I was a classic tomboy growing up. And, like many, I view the discipline as more of a dance than a battle.
Vanessa in the dojo.
For me it’s also about harmonizing the body and knowing how to both strengthen and move from your center – with power! For comparison, the opposite take on it would be my fellow Aikido practitioner, Steven Seagal. He likes to power through moves and hurt people (at least on film). Lots of clotheslines, too. I’m not saying he isn’t very good at it!
I also focus on Aikido weapon work. I wanted a way to deal with conflict resolution, improve balance and dexterity, work on my mind and body, and also ensure basic self preservation and defense abilities.
Focus, reflection – and lots of throwing.
And I started Iaido during the pandemic after a beloved octogenarian sensei ceremoniously passed his sword down to me. That was a compliment I had to honor. While Iaido is a graceful and feminine body art, it’s also useful for removing heads in certain situations. The timing and precision of the Japanese body art disciplines (which is a good way to describe weapons aikido and Iaido) requires decades to master, so hopefully I have lots of time.
Admittedly, I also enjoy “the throwing of people”. Not going to lie.
Whether fiddling in the garden, cruising around California on roller skates or kicking butt in the dojo – I am a woman of many hobbies. It only made sense to devote a new gallery to them all which will be updated regularly.
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I hope that everyone enjoys these glimpses into my daily life, and I look forward to any questions or comments from fans and fellow hobbyists.
Earlier this week, AdultDVDTalk.com retweeted one of my posts, and we ended up having a DM chat. I’m still very new to the online adult world and wasn’t familiar with the site. But was not disappointed when I paid them a visit and saw I could get involved.
After scoping it out, and seeing the very active community there (not to mention a few references to Vanessa Chase), I decided to sign up and see what happened. Well, I’m very glad I did, because it has been the high point of my week.
Chattin’ with fans on AdultDVDTalk.com!
Here’s the thread I started a few days ago, and I’ve absolutely loved interacting with the fans and other kind people who have reached out: Hello From Vanessa Chase.
While the adult business has become way more mainstream than in my 1990s heyday, there is still a definite stigma surrounding everyone involved, past or present. This is something we all have to live with, whether proud or full of regret due to the indiscretions of youth. Thankfully, I am able to count myself as the former.
So, obviously, one of the biggest consequences of having been a successful porn star is being recognized in the real world on a regular basis. And, in my case, almost every time I leave the house! Maybe it’s because I live in the porn industry ground-zero that is California, or am lucky enough to still resemble the younger version of Vanessa Chase which fans remember – but I am not exaggerating. Rarely a day goes by when I don’t get “the look” from some guy at Trader Joe’s, Target, or just walking down the street. I’m still even recognized when I’m masked up. A lot!
The funniest part might be that it’s so predictable. Always starts with that same look. The guy will just stand there with a sort of lustful and knowing expression. Sometimes I pick up on a sense of shame on their part, followed quickly by a quick shift to… superiority? But these are the worst examples and I’ve long since learned to shrug them off in favor of well-meaning fans I actually enjoy interacting with.
The most brazen of the disturbing, quiet “fans” might even follow me around a store, just keeping a slight distance, without ever confirming the recognition by saying “hello”. They want the eye contact, they want to talk to me, they want to tell me their desires and how they still have a copy of one movie or another on DVD – but rarely do. And they must realize how uncomfortable that is for me – but play it out anyway. Don’t be that guy, guys!
For years after I left the business the creepy, staring eyes used to bother me. At one point I genuinely wanted to do everything I could to erase my past. Because the business isn’t all fun and games. Imagine being an eighteen-year-old woman dealing with such adversity. Your brain doesn’t even fully develop for another seven years! No one leaves this lifestyle unscathed.
After over a quarter century of running away from my surreal past, however, I’ve thankfully come to embrace it. And, most importantly, I learned to stop caring what the weird men, with their judgmental and beady-little-eyes, think of the Vanessa Chase of today. In fact, I’ve stopped caring to such a degree that I decided to come out of hiding and make something positive out of a lifestyle that has caused negativity and suffering to so many.
My return to the public eye is truly on my own terms. I’m hoping to use modern platforms to spread positivity and love. And hopefully some guidance to the young generation of adult performers. I want to learn from the naïve mistakes of my youth, and make something great from this bizarre legacy that I have created for myself. If you’ve found IAmVanessaChase.com, you’re already along for the ride.
